Happy Birthday, Sandra!

<-------See this girl? she's officially 6 today! wait, i mean 14. haha. Happy birthday Sandra!!! I deliberately put this pic of her cos; first of all; its sooo cute! and secondly, i think she'd kill me or something if i put other pics of her cos she reckons i dont have nice pics of her. oh well. haha.


guess what; i actually worked today! first time in two years. at my ncle's shop anyway. dead exhausted now. laters.

Amateur Alcos

Loook at those kids!! haha. can you spot me; no prizes for guessing though. i'm in pink. anyways thats was taken during the melaka trip exactly a week ago. i shall blog abt that trip. it was crazy, to say the least. there were lotsa dumb ass things going on but no i'm not gonna list them down.

a'famosa. if you've never been there, keep it that way. it's so frigging run-down. im not trying to degrade the place but frankly, it stinks (literrally too). poor animals look so out of place and restless. the condos which we stayed in weren't actually that bad but they could do with a little more upkeeping and refurbishment. not to mention bird poo everywhere in the drying/air-well area.

Boozing was rampant, albeit only on the first night; we got busted. haha. espesh kah ken whose face is ever so red; what more with a mere few sips of carlsberg he was flushingly red; absolutely like a huge tomato. poor you.

then i fell horribly sick the second day. no; it wasn't the alco. i think it was 'wind' in my tummy. but nonetheless it sucked man. drained all the energy and zest outta me. and pn. teh took care of me like a mother! no kidding. oh, she even labelled me hot! and macho. lol. haha.

and kai ming's taste of music rocks! i borrowed his ipod while in the condo while everybody else were running around, swimming, etc. and i was surprised to find his genre tastes are like that of mine of micahel and me. and there were loads of mimi songs. that's mariah carey for you.

we suck. why cant we just stay put? haha. iloveyou =)

Looking For..?

run. run. keep on running. and it hit me; "what the *%&# are you doing?". i frigging ran out of school again. i kinda promised myself not to do it again but heck, ive done it again. the question is not why ive done but rather; what's wrong with me? what've i been thinking? i could very well et expelled!! argh.

i was feeling funny. wait, horrible, more like. i was hungry, sleepy, drowsy, frustrated, depressed, angry and tired all at the same time. and seemingly i cant think staight. i was and am flustered.

i woke up this morning in tears. i cant overcome the pain. still. had a dream which was too real to be true. it was actually sweet. but reality hit really hard when dawn approached and i was left to succumb to tears..

i called. iwanted to talk. the words wouldnt flow. im missing you.

More Like..?

i had the worst possible start to the morning today. i dont wanna recall what happened but lets just say i woke up horribly late and ended up having to walk to school; with a few shits happening in between. was late for school too. brilliant.

anyways, we spent the whole day listening to a premarital sex abstinence talk- 'no apologies'. very interesting. it was very open and they had an anything goes policy. and they had to touch a topic which made my eyes well up. love. heck. haha.
and heck. 2 girls were hitting on me today. one was the facillitator and the other was some innkie's friend. alas; i only still have eyes for ......

rest of the day was spent playing futsal, wining eleven-ing, and cooking. seriously.

Twinkle Toes

five-a-side soccer inter class tourney today. but heck, half the team went for that college trip! so my team obviously had to loan players. there were only 4 of us. we 'loaned' dinesh. heck, he was our trump card! we beat this other team 4-0; with dinesh scoring all 4 of 'em! im proud to say i made a few assists and opportunistic passes. and also a few neat shimmys here and there. like the perfectly weighted chip i made for kai ming only for him to miss it. haha, dont worry ming, you're still a very good footballer.

i'd have to admit this' the 2nd time ive done it in a year; i sneaked outta school during recess. yea i know in my sweaty PE tee. and guess where i went? yes, i went to a cyber cafe, folks. surprise eh? its so not me to step into a one but heck, i did. played for abt 2 hrs then went back to school for a red crescent meeting and then aaron and me shot back to the cafe for more rounds of fifa, counter strike and dota. and heck, ive learned how to play dota! haha this will be my last time though. im not intending of stepping into one again.

im going out of my mind.

Fishcakes Ahoy

Thai fishcakes are the bomb. i abso love them man. note that i said 'thai fishcakes'. had it at klcc today.

today started with my dad banging my door down literally and screaming "dont you have tuition?" i shot up, blur, dizzy and dazed and thought for a while. after like 30 seconds or so with my dad staring at me, i replied "ive never had tuition on tuesday mornings." "right then. sorry", came the reply.

noon time, dad and me went shopping. saw cargo pants from 3point6 and instantly swooped for it. cost me a cool 189 bucks. then lunch. went thai today. then went looking for loafers but they were ugly so went to look at sneakers but they were equally as urgh. after a few tops, i told dad i needed a new cologne. so off we went in search of man scents. givenchy's for old uncles, armani doesnt smell so "in-between" anymore. so i settled for red delicious, dkny. yeap buhbyee fcuk and armani, they're making way for dkny. and my dad's weird; he only wears socks from zara and marks & spencers.

even shopping cant get you off my mind.

Pfft..

everything's going from bad to worse for me.. im not one who divulges in self-pity but quite frankly, i feel like CRAP. what's wrong with me? i cried first thing when i woke up today, then in the shower, then couple'o times during church service, during lunch, at home, while playing soccer (im weird, i know), at dinner, and then in the shower again. argh.. its a really big blow to me and ive been literally hit so hard im barely able to pick myself up again.. sighs..i dont know..

What Hurts The Most

its been exactly 24 hours since.. and my tears cant seem to stop flowing.. heck, honestly ive never cried so much in the whole 15 years of my lifetime.. and its the first time ive felt so much hurt and pain.. im broken..crushed.. and tears are still flowng down my dimples which you used to pinch.. but i respect your decision and am not one nor isit in my abillities to alter what you've decided on. but ive promised you that i'd wait for you and not date anyone till you're ready. and i want you to know.. that i still love you.. more than words can describe and more than you'd ever know..